101 Secrets

172. I honestly believe no one actually likes me. I feel all my "friends" are only friends because they're too nice to tell me to get lost and feel sorry for me.

Wed, 03 Aug 2011 02:14:26 -0400

There’s nothing to like about me. I feel out of place and annoying. It bothers me. I’m always afraid to speak and have to rehearse everything I want to say in my head before I say it, and even then I end up replaying it and feel stupid. I’m not funny or pretty or smart or talented like the rest of them. I’m ugly and boring and none of them actually seem to like me.

171. I wish I looked like you. I wish I had your voice. I wish I had your personality. I wish people liked me like they liked you. I wish I could be you. You're so perfect and I'm so jealous.

Wed, 03 Aug 2011 02:12:00 -0400

170. I've stopped trying at things I really want to do or be a part of because I don't have the confidence to believe I can make it, because I know for sure I won't make it. Because there's always some one better, more talented, or prettier that'll always beat me out. I can never be the best.

Wed, 03 Aug 2011 02:10:52 -0400

169. I won't be happy until I'm finally pretty. And I'll never feel pretty, until trying to be pretty finally kills me. I'm willing to push it that far.

Wed, 03 Aug 2011 02:08:42 -0400

168. I'm highly considering getting surgery once I have the money.

Wed, 03 Aug 2011 02:07:47 -0400

167. I want to have big boobs and a bigger butt. I hate being so flat.

Wed, 03 Aug 2011 02:07:02 -0400

10243.) What happens when you can't handle me? What happens then? I panic, I cry, I get mad for no reason. You'll leave. You'll be just like the rest.

Wed, 03 Aug 2011 02:06:17 -0400

10246.) The one thing I want most in the world is to be beautiful.

Wed, 03 Aug 2011 02:06:02 -0400

10257.) I think I want to be "that girl." Because even if she's "that girl," she's got people chasing after her, people who care what she does. And I want that. I want to be "that girl."

Wed, 03 Aug 2011 02:04:56 -0400

166. I wish I had big boobs. Girls with big boobs always have so many guys crushing on them and get boyfriends so much easier.

Wed, 03 Aug 2011 02:03:56 -0400

No guy wants a flat chested girl like me :(

9485.) When my life is spiraling out of control, and I'm losing my grip on everything, I quit eating. It's not hard. It's so easy for me to just stop. I'll not eat for days at a time, eat a little, and throw up. I don't think I have an eating disorder, but it's the only way I can control what happens to me.

Mon, 23 May 2011 20:55:00 -0400

I wish I could

9490.) I will never tell anyone how close I am to committing suicide every day. The only way they'll ever find out is if I actually do it.

Mon, 23 May 2011 20:54:31 -0400

9499.) I wish I could be the perfect girl my parents expect me to be. I wish I could get good grades, never get in trouble, be skinny, be pretty and just do things right for once. The one thing that hurts me the most in my life is knowing I'm letting my parents down. They're my idols, and I look up to them. I know I'll never be what they want me to be, and that breaks my heart.

Mon, 23 May 2011 20:53:29 -0400

9506.) I say I don't care... but I do. More than I'll ever admit.

Mon, 23 May 2011 20:52:47 -0400

9509.) I'm annoying, I'm bitchy, I'm dumb, I'm indecisive. I make horrible decisions and I make everyone around me angry.

Mon, 23 May 2011 20:52:43 -0400

9510.) I never feel happy anymore.

Mon, 23 May 2011 20:52:42 -0400

9512.) I wish I was skinny. I wish I was pretty. I wish he would like me.

Mon, 23 May 2011 20:52:01 -0400

9514.) I feel so alienated. I'm just too ugly, too fat. There's absolutely nothing about me that I like or feel proud of.

Mon, 23 May 2011 20:51:59 -0400

9515.) I wish I were anyone, anyone but me.

Mon, 23 May 2011 20:51:57 -0400

9529.) I think I suffer from depression. I'm constantly depressed for no reason and my mood swings like crazy. Most of my friends think I'm fine and happy, from the way I act and the ones who know me well will never hang out with me due to some restrictions. What am I supposed to do?

Mon, 23 May 2011 20:50:03 -0400

I know I have depression. It’s a genetic mental disorder in my case