101 Secrets

August 2011

10 posts

172. I honestly believe no one actually likes me. I feel all my "friends" are only friends because they're too nice to tell me to get lost and feel sorry for me.

There’s nothing to like about me. I feel out of place and annoying. It bothers me. I’m always afraid to speak and have to rehearse everything I want to say in my head before I say it, and even then I end up replaying it and feel stupid. I’m not funny or pretty or smart or talented like the rest of them. I’m ugly and boring and none of them actually seem to like me. 

Aug 03, 20115 notes

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171. I wish I looked like you. I wish I had your voice. I wish I had your personality. I wish people liked me like they liked you. I wish I could be you. You're so perfect and I'm so jealous.

Aug 03, 20116 notes

#perfect #jealousy #i wish #you #number171 #secret #101 secrets

170. I've stopped trying at things I really want to do or be a part of because I don't have the confidence to believe I can make it, because I know for sure I won't make it. Because there's always some one better, more talented, or prettier that'll always beat me out. I can never be the best.

Aug 03, 20111 note

#the best #number 170 #secret #101 secrets #give up #failed #talent #try #confidence #why bother

169. I won't be happy until I'm finally pretty. And I'll never feel pretty, until trying to be pretty finally kills me. I'm willing to push it that far.

Aug 03, 20117 notes

#number 169 #secret #101 secrets #pretty #happiness #kill me

168. I'm highly considering getting surgery once I have the money.

Aug 03, 20113 notes

#surgery #number 168 #secret #101 secrets

167. I want to have big boobs and a bigger butt. I hate being so flat.

Aug 03, 20112 notes

#appearance #number 167 #secret #101 secrets #butt #boobs

10243.) What happens when you can't handle me? What happens then? I panic, I cry, I get mad for no reason. You'll leave. You'll be just like the rest.

Aug 03, 2011489 notes

10246.) The one thing I want most in the world is to be beautiful.

Aug 03, 2011367 notes

10257.) I think I want to be "that girl." Because even if she's "that girl," she's got people chasing after her, people who care what she does. And I want that. I want to be "that girl."

Aug 03, 2011173 notes

166. I wish I had big boobs. Girls with big boobs always have so many guys crushing on them and get boyfriends so much easier.

No guy wants a flat chested girl like me :(

Aug 03, 20113 notes

#number 166 #101 secrets #secret #boobs

May 2011

37 posts

9485.) When my life is spiraling out of control, and I'm losing my grip on everything, I quit eating. It's not hard. It's so easy for me to just stop. I'll not eat for days at a time, eat a little, and throw up. I don't think I have an eating disorder, but it's the only way I can control what happens to me.

I wish I could

May 23, 201189 notes

9490.) I will never tell anyone how close I am to committing suicide every day. The only way they'll ever find out is if I actually do it.

May 23, 2011266 notes

9499.) I wish I could be the perfect girl my parents expect me to be. I wish I could get good grades, never get in trouble, be skinny, be pretty and just do things right for once. The one thing that hurts me the most in my life is knowing I'm letting my parents down. They're my idols, and I look up to them. I know I'll never be what they want me to be, and that breaks my heart.

May 23, 2011514 notes

9506.) I say I don't care... but I do. More than I'll ever admit.

May 23, 2011729 notes

9509.) I'm annoying, I'm bitchy, I'm dumb, I'm indecisive. I make horrible decisions and I make everyone around me angry.

May 23, 2011664 notes

9510.) I never feel happy anymore.

May 23, 2011554 notes

9512.) I wish I was skinny. I wish I was pretty. I wish he would like me.

May 23, 2011549 notes

9514.) I feel so alienated. I'm just too ugly, too fat. There's absolutely nothing about me that I like or feel proud of.

May 23, 2011261 notes

9515.) I wish I were anyone, anyone but me.

May 23, 2011204 notes

9529.) I think I suffer from depression. I'm constantly depressed for no reason and my mood swings like crazy. Most of my friends think I'm fine and happy, from the way I act and the ones who know me well will never hang out with me due to some restrictions. What am I supposed to do?

I know I have depression. It’s a genetic mental disorder in my case

May 23, 2011242 notes